cataphract的部落格

exhausted, mentally and physically
When drifting on the ocean, I see the land is in the front and I know I could swim there

But still want to grab any log coming

Will I exhaust my energy before getting on the land? should I just grab the log before sinking in the ocean? but in that way, I cannot reach to the paradise land I dream for...

My hope of getting to the land is growing a little dimmer, and I gradually feel a stronger desire to grasp any chance not to sink...

Should I still believe I can get there?(I did believe several months ago, but now I'm swaying) or should I make a preventive measure to grap any object drifting near me? oh!! so hard to decide